It feels as though everything is churning around me. The world is rife with war, famine and suffering. People are everywhere yet nowhere, since they are disconnected by a swarm of apps, electronic noise and smartphones. The intense heat of the summer sun pulses relentlessly, almost bursting at the seams as youth comes out to play in all its half-naked glory. Yet I keep reminding myself that this is all an illusion. Everything that is not constant is not real. Only what is real remains the same; unchanged.
Vainly, I cling to the hope that I can see past this superfice, as I fight the impulse to succumb to temptation’s alluring deception. Luckily I am given a reprieve by my own feeble recalcitrance against the path least travelled. The deepest, darkest waters have always drawn me like a moth to the flame. Constantly seeking out new challenges undaunted, blind with mechanical discipline and drone-like consistency. Unable to forgive myself fully for my past trespasses, I content myself with a cloak of smug humility. Although I know the gaping chinks in my armor are clear for all to see.
In this quiet storm of illusion, I feel lost and forlorn. Yet when I saw her fleeting smile, it gave me renewed strength to press on. For I know that deep down this too shall pass into oblivion. Like a shattered myth, collapsing on itself, drowning in a cesspool of lies and untruths. And when these too wash away. All that will be left behind are a few precious nuggets of hope that I will cling to until it is too late. If only I could unsee this illusory tale of my fate.
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